Strawberry

2011-04-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

Things happen n i made a stupid mistake. if i grow up more be mature on my thinking i then won hurt u badly. about tt incident it just keep coming through my mind over n over again. i feel a shame of wad i did tt day. i cant get over it easily i doubt u could too.. i'm really scared tt things would be different after tt night. i knw u couldnt put ur total trust in me any more. but i will try to gain back tt trust. i know i got to give u more time coz u cant like treat nth happen just over a few night. i will grow up. Darling i'm really sorry to hurt u over n over again.

2011-02-26T07:39:00.000-08:00

Its day 3 of darling thailand trip.. yesterday we just chat alittle on text. he seems to be quite busy.. till nw still didnt receive any of his text. it seems like his really busy today... ahh!!! misses him so much.the feeling is just diff when his in singapore n in thailand.

2011-02-24T04:32:00.000-08:00

Darling is on the plane flying towards Thailand. And i'm starting to miss him already!!! tts fast!!!

2011-02-15T18:55:00.000-08:00

U've nv doubt me or mistrust me even when I make so many mistake n u still believe in me.. I feel so shame. For nt trusting u when u didn't even hurt me.. I seriously
.. Got to change my pettyness!!

2011-01-30T07:13:00.000-08:00

i'm a pork chop!!! ah super sad!! plz give me some confident!! y do i always feel other girl is so much prettier n better then me:( i wanna look be n feel fabulous too!!!!!!!!

2011-01-18T06:14:00.001-08:00

meeting the bf is always the best thing of all:)!!!!

2011-01-18T03:41:00.000-08:00

today is just bad!!!! real bad!!!!!! it aint great at all.... it just so sucky!!!!!

2011-01-01T23:03:00.000-08:00

Its a New Year!! hope tt this year would be a really good wan!!! n i can really feel tt darling really did put in effort in our relationship!!!:D n i'm happy!!! because he waited for me n at least we spend new year together although we've been sleeping almost the whole day thou. hahahahaha... loving my boyfriend super lots!!! hope tt his new year would be a really great wan for us:)
New year resolution
need to be slim before chines new year n be really slim before my 21 birthday!!!(oh no! i feel old)
get my driving license before the year ends hahahaha
gonna work hard!
n buck up on my theory!
giving my boyfriend more love hahahaha..

2010-12-05T21:00:00.000-08:00

Waking up n knowing tt u have nt left me just make me happy. Hope tt it wasn't a dream.

2010-12-05T05:10:00.001-08:00

i always thought we r fated to be together because of everything because of the coincidence in life. u were primary sch frenz with my bro. n i know u since shatec but we knew each other better in hyatt we then be together n broke up. n u happen to see my bro gf. n we patch n nw we endded our 1n a half year relationship. after all i keep thinking this is fate but i guess i was wrong it was all a stupid thinking of mine. after all its all a dream. i've woke up. because of i ruin my own dream.

2010-12-04T19:45:00.001-08:00

Artist:	Rascal Flatts
Album:	What Hurts the Most
Title:	What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

not seein that lovin you
that’s what I was tryin to do…

2010-12-04T10:37:00.001-08:00

"When You Look Me In The Eyes"by jonas brothers

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

2010-12-04T10:16:00.000-08:00

"Just A Dream" by Nelly - Christina Grimmie & Sam Tsui

(Sam Tsui)

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Sam Tsui)

I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
I shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain't right.

(Together)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Christina Grimmie)
When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I'm tryin to get my usher on, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you'll know you're the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I'll be missing when I'll learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm wishin that she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong...

(Together)
And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no...).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a.. it's just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream
(baby, it was only just... it was only just a dream)

Nooo... Ohhh...

It was only just a dream.

2010-12-04T09:56:00.000-08:00

after chatting with sp today i realise it wasnt ur fault from the start it was mine. he point out all my wrong point at one go. wad he say was true. i didnt give u space freedom n time for u all the time suspecting u for no reason didnt give u any trust at all. i always say i will give u my support n help u with ur goal but end up i always giving u trouble n problems to worried of leaving me is a right choice cos u will lead a better life with no worries of relationship. i use to think sticking n sticky with each other is call love but i'm wrong its all about connection of the hearts. i wanna cry i wanna cry super badly because i lose u. i trying to stay strong. trying to act like i'm ready to be ur frenz but i guess i'm wrong. it just killing me inside softly. i'm kind of lost nw cos u r always the reason i'm working hard for. maybe nw is my turn to sort it out wad i really wan. n fight for.

2010-12-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

Its no point crying over spiel milk if u spiel it then clean it up n pour a new cup. although i cant bear to leave this behind but i will try my hardest to forget about u nt as a fren but a lover i will still treat u as my frenz when ever u need me i'll still be there for u if ya need a talk. from this days onwards i will start afresh i'm gonna be a better person. i still believe in love. just tt that i gotta wait for the right time the right guy. i swear i gonna work double hard for my future so maybe i'll see u at the top. u r still my motivation. because of u i realize how much i love my job i see how a person could actually go this far to wan this thing so badly. u make me seen it. theres nth to lose but yet i gain alot of knowledge from u. u'v got no wrong because everything is from me i created all the shit for u to handle.i'm gonna change n be a understanding n patient person i'm gonna eat a humble pie. i willl learn learn learn n learn work as hard as i can. all the best to u!! one day we will see each other at the top of its glory!

2010-11-19T00:37:00.000-08:00

Getting depress with my body:(

2010-11-15T04:34:00.000-08:00

while walking along the road from compass point to my house i did some reflecting.. i feel lousy in every ways. lousy in BGR, lousy in friendship, lousy with family relationship, lousy in sch works. even lousy in something i enjoy doing most. lousy being a pastry chef(commis) wad am i good with? i think i'm only good at lying. seriously feel tt i'm a lousy person with nth good.

2010-11-15T04:33:00.000-08:00

Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OfsZyYPLoI

2010-11-15T03:35:00.001-08:00

I have many free n valuable lesson from u..

2010-11-15T03:32:00.000-08:00

Maybe I'm to good!! Hahahaha!!

2010-11-10T14:34:00.000-08:00

Just a hug n a kiss is a perfect ending of a tiring day:)

Ah!! I wan to slim down to 50 before chinese new year!! N I'm serious!! Just gotto fucking shut my mouth from all the delicious food!!! So sadded!!!! Y can't I have high metabolism rate!!!

2010-11-09T14:17:00.000-08:00

After chatting with my frenz last night I was wondering y ppl would cheat. On their other half? If the feeling isn't right that's y they r seeing another person then they should like stop being together right? If u fall for another person then just break with ur current because its like wads the point of being together where ur heart were with other ppl? Right? Relationship is something tt nobody could perfect it. A moment of excitement n freshness bring a long time regrettment.

2010-11-05T07:51:00.001-07:00

Its like falling in love with u again:)

2010-11-01T04:48:00.001-07:00

I still have the heart pumping feeling whenever I'm meeting u:)

2010-10-20T16:10:00.001-07:00

Ok... Mum n bro went china last night will be hm on the 26 ... Dad will be going indo on fri back on sun means.. Darling will be working.. Means I'm alone.. Hahaha... But ok lah.. I'm use to it already.. Hahahaha.... So let's see if lih yee will be working late on fri or sat anot.. So maybe I can learn some 3D stuff from her hahahaha... I know sometime its hard for u to balance army work family frenz n me.. But I understand so so far I got no complain just gotta get use to it hahaha.. It makes me grow up! Hahaha...being with u really makes me grow up makes me feel how much a thing u like n going all out for it..

2010-10-20T16:10:00.000-07:00

2010-10-10T00:11:00.000-07:00

I miss my darling!!!!

2010-10-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

Although its like just 1day nt seeing darling... But I miss him already!!! Hahahaha... Lesser time to be together makes me treasure the time more when we r together!

2010-10-06T16:07:00.000-07:00

Sometime small things make wonders. Hahaha... Darling make an effort to spend time with me super happy.. Heex... Because I most prob won be seeing him for the next 3 days. N he make time for me yesterday hahahaha... Love him so much!!!!(V) hahahaha... Ok.. Now I'm super addicted to boss cake. Their cake is more like a art piece then for eating... Ah!!! Super nice wait till I got my clay or dough I will start doing some figuring wahahahahhaa... Oh.. But I also wanna focus on my dessert too! Dessert is important to a successful partiser...

2010-09-22T17:28:00.000-07:00

This year F1 is super busy.... Ok maybe nt yet the fullest but still got quite a lot of thing to do!!! N its making me super tired everyday!!! Super hard to wake up from my comfort bed!!!!!! But yet I like it busy hahahaha... Just 3 more days n its over I hope. Just hope Tt he won call me back on sunday. Because I wan to spend time with bf!!! Even if just slp through also ok! Hahahaha... Super miss him!!!!

2010-09-19T05:05:00.000-07:00

I SWEAR I WANNA BE WITH U FOREVER!!!

2010-09-18T02:42:00.000-07:00

I seriously miss u a lot! But I doubt u don know how I'm feeling right nw. Ah!!! Wad to do wad to do.... I miss those hugs n kisses u gave me...

2010-09-13T16:05:00.000-07:00

Last night I doing some self reflection.
I'm screwed. I mess up my family my frenz n my relationship. Feeling useless as usual. But Ur leaving made me stronger issint this wad u wan me to be all awhile. Now I'm gonna work hard for my future even without u. I'm gonna be independent n stronger.hahahaha.. I'm saying like u hurt me but I'm the one tt been hurting u all the while.

2010-09-09T08:46:00.000-07:00

Two is better then One.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

i realise tt how much i've hurt u in the past n asking for assurance when u already gave me one. i'm sorry for nt trusting u n nt giving u trust maybe is nt u the one have to give me assurance is i'm the one.. and nt giving ur own space in life i'm just being selffish of my self. u made the right choice to walk out of my life. because i know u will be happier then before. I love u from the start even till now. But i will tell myself to leave it all to the past. And carry on with my life to the future. if u were mine u will be mine. if fate doesn't bring us together no matter how hard we tried we will still separate.

2010-09-08T19:38:00.001-07:00

i wan to forget about u! y izzit so damn hard!!!

2010-09-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

Maybe there's no ever lasting in my life. Because I've been hurting those ppl who love me.. Karma.. Hahaha.. What comes around goes around. N yeah. I deserve it. No complain. Just heartbreaking.

2010-09-05T15:35:00.000-07:00

waking up to realise tt u r nt here anymore its just so hurting! forgetting u is nt an easy task for me. saying good bye to u is really hard but i've got no choice. i can't force u to be with me i just have to get use to a new life without u.

2010-09-05T04:05:00.000-07:00

its had being apart from him.. i just couldnt control my tears. maybe time will change everything i will just have to get use to it. its really hurting..

2010-09-04T11:36:00.000-07:00

Y CANT I JUST STOP CRYING!!!

2010-09-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

i seriously don know wad to do. i think this is my biggest pain in my life!

2010-08-31T07:48:00.000-07:00

ok after thinking for so long.. i find tt no point crying live still have to go on.. if i'm imperfect then i have to make things perfect. i gotta be more sociable need to slim down tts the biggest part hahaha need to hydrate my super duper dry skin oh.. n nt so sensitive gotto put more trust on boyfriend hahahahaha... gonna try to go towards my goal!!! effect start on 1 sep this time i'm serious lah!!!!!! Nicholas Cheng believe me!!!

2010-08-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

here to blog finally ... hahahaha.. i'm to bored!! i'm off n darling is at work... hahahaha.... so i'm here blogging:) we went genting n kl for 4 days 3 night.. n its nt bad just tt the stuff over is equally expensive as singapore.... n there is like another singapore not much stuff over there hahaha... n btw genting to kl theres a little quarrel with darling because of honesty i'm nt being honest with him. n i'm wrong... no complains about tt... just tt nw i'm thinking is like i'm tying him down too much. he cant have a free n easy life no contact with girl no club n drinks always complaining tt he don love me enough... i find it funny.. he didn't cheat on me n so on but yet i don trust him hahahaha... funny ya.. maybe is just tt his such a good guy n i'm such a lousy person t i scared i lost him or maybe karma... question mark question mark.... i'm lousy!!

2010-08-19T07:06:00.000-07:00

don know y i suddenly kind of miss darling. hahahaha... althought we've seen each other just yesterday n the day before hahahahahaha.... I JUST MISS U DARLING:)

2010-08-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

Today whole day not in very good mood!!! I screw myself up in the morning by quarreling with darling. But nw we r ok already.today whole day wanna time to pass super fucking fast n faster go home!!! End up I took cab home. Nw I just super miss him! Super emo! Super happy tt his coming back already!!!! Seriously misses u!!!! Its been so long tt we've nt seen each other!

2010-08-09T03:30:00.000-07:00

I'm emo!!!! I miss my bf super lots!!!!

2010-08-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

3rd day of Thailand oversea trip

Imiss darling wan to msg him but don dare scared he very busy or nv turn his phone silence! super miss him!!!!!!!!! hope everything over there went smoothly.

Today work nt really tt busy hahahaha... but work till around 7 plus went over to baba place with lih yee sp n ah wei to visit baba wife. rush over to watch channel 8 9 pm show hahahaha... last eps! i get to see it but my darling cant hahahaha.... feel like tt wan to faster end the show like tt hahahaha.... then sit sit talk talk till 10.30 all tired already then we go hm... so here i am blogging.. hahahaha... super miss my boyfriend n its just the 3rd day. but it feels super long!!!

I'm going swimming tomorrow!!! if i haven come menses hahahahahaha...

Love u Nicholas Cheng!

2010-08-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday send bro n darling at the airport they going to Thailand 16 days of training. first time being apart for so long.. maybe theres more to come. Today is the first day of their training darling bought their high card over there n called me in the afternoon. hahahaha.. His having lts of thai food for lunch sure eat until he sian hahahaha...today Its kind of like this is the first sunday doing nth hahahahaha.. 16 days of independent i must say. so gonna miss him!!

2010-07-26T06:49:00.000-07:00

although u r nt as sensitive as other guy... nt as lovey dovey other guy. but i still love u as much as the start.

2010-06-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

Everybody is getting married!!!

2010-06-14T16:12:00.000-07:00

!!!! I had a serious nightmare last night!! I dream tt I n darling break up.. Waking upfinding myself crying.. Super real.. Super scared.. Just hope tt this things won happen...

Last night team building cancel so we decide to go down find uncle jau with lih yee doris ah boon 2 ah wei jialing hahaha.. Drink a little beer tried black hahaha.. They say black beer very pu hahaha!!! Then went home n left my phone in the cab lucky jialing haven get of the cab yet.. Hahaha... If nt my baby will lost already!!!! Hahaha... Love my phone to max...hahaha!!

2010-06-13T08:16:00.000-07:00

I'm getting fat recently i think after fha i puttimg on weight n i still blame darling for hurting my feeling... wad the fuck am i think?? because is i'm the one tt call darling to tell me harshly tt if i grow fat must tell me... haix... crazy me.. for blaming for the wrong reason.. but i'm kind of up sad with my self.. this few days getting fatter skin condition become worse n i'm nt doing anything wad darling say is right using mouth to complain n taking action to it then wad for complaining?? ah.... exercise exercise!!!! i won forget ur promise okie darling

2010-06-07T00:06:00.000-07:00

I'M SUPER FAT!!!...super sad!! i'm so fat tt i don even feel like buying clothing i swear!!! i really wanna be thin thin super thin!! i wan long hairs nice curl nice complexion... i wan darling to be super proud of me... nt only outside inside too!!! i keep complaining tt darling don show enough love for me but after chating with sp i think darling is also stress with army life... army makes our relationship strain.. n darlings appetite has nt been good this few days maybe because his mood is often up n down?? i will just try my best nt to think so much don wanna add more problem to him... i;ve nt been a good gf this past 1 years u r always the one trying ur best to this relationship n maybe this tired u down alittle i'm sorry darling.. i will to be by ur side when u need me... no more trouble from me i promise....

this few days i feel tt i"ve been slacking in pastry haix... n create trouble for ppl... stupid me screw my self up n down!!

2010-05-19T05:30:00.001-07:00

OmG!!! super long time never blog already i think its super rusty already hahaha!!! hmmm... mANY THINGS HAPPEN FHA over already get bronze then i moved to my new house already:) super like my new house hahaha.. big comfortable n near to darling hahaha... n darling n i one year already n he bought me a polorade!!instant camera... i super like it i brig it every where with me heex:) although its heavy hahaha.. but i still bring because i could take many happy moment photo heex..love him super lots!!!

2010-04-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

ITS 2AM NOW!!! n i'm still at work FHA is reaching in like 6 days time but i still haven had a single dessert out yet!!! i'm super tired!! i miss darling so much although i just see him yesterday.. but i super miss him.. need a super real super big hug from him... miss him so much!!! n darling maybe coming down on friday to help us heex... super long time never work with him already!! happy:)

2010-04-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

I think i super long time never blog already haha.. hmmm... last week me n darling went wild wild wet its darling first time but darling n i did not really enjoy it because its freaking crowded!!! n we have to Q up for like half an hour for the damn slide!! but we played the 2story high slide its freaking scary but we played twice heex:) scary but fun whahaha!! hmmm.. then yesterday darling came down to find me omg!! i seriously miss my poppy whahaha.. miss his hug lips n smell his always nice smell hahaha... omg omg!! i misses him so much!!! just hope the bangkok trip can confirm really wanna go oversea n shop shop shop n it will be our first trip together omg so excited gotta slime down quick n save lots of money!!!hex:)

2010-03-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

Now is 11.41pm n i'm missing my boyfriend already!! 11 hours for a week isn't enough at all n it makes me missing him more!! seriously wanna be with him forever if i could i will. his my love n my everything!! n todays he looks hot when his in his just fiting army green top grey jeans n his black specs it a total sexy to me whahaha:)

2010-03-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

Now is 12.11pm n i'm at my beloved house using his maggy to blog hahaha.. his sleeping soundly like a baby haha.. he so tired from yesterday 24hr guard duty still say not n now his sleeping haha..silly him. but i still love him:) because his my beloved n 1 n only!! heex:)

2010-03-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY BIBI!!! i miss my bf bloody lots!!! went out with my mum today went for the so call meeting with bro god father then down to centre point bought skin care product n down to hougang mall n bought grocery for my darling its always nice to shop for ur love one:) heex.. n i love u darling:)

2010-03-08T19:44:00.001-08:00

WEATHER IS SUPPER DUPER HOT HOT HOT N HOT!!!

2010-03-08T19:40:00.000-08:00

i miss my boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend!!!...like seriously alot!!! misses his cutey face haha... i'm getting fat fat each day!! hope darling don mind hahaha... fat fat hug already more comfortable like booster ma right darling hahaha:)hope this week would pass ultra fast!!!

2010-03-07T19:13:00.000-08:00

After this incident things may not be the same as last time?? I'm scared i don wan us to be like stranger. i don wan this feeling, I'm scared.

I fear tt i'm gonna lose u again with my character i wan to change but no matter how hard i try my mind woud suddenly bounce back to sqaure 1. i don know wad to do. i really wan to walk down the road with u till the end happily. i hope u do feel tt too.

2010-03-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

I'm suck anit me?? my head is so freaking pain!! been crying since 4 till now is 10 is 6hrs... i don know wad to do don know wad to say. i just can't slp with all the crying n thinking. scared things might be happening. but wad can i say its i'm the one tt created this scene. i'm an idiot aint me love is so much to me but i always burst it.

2010-03-02T19:38:00.000-08:00

I miss my boyfriend lots!!!! n FHA is taking alot of my brain space!! every night before i slp funny funny dessert will start appearing in my head! been eating alot recently, maybe i'm stress haha..tts not an excuse. been in work for like 8-10.30 14hrs!!! n i still cant really get any dessert out.. fuck shit man. all blame to my laziness !!! shit me!!

2010-02-25T01:26:00.000-08:00

I miss my boyfriend!!! Its tota madness!!! miss him to the core!!! okay gonna nap now. later gonna continue my FHA!!! I know u r there for me no matter wad, so i'm gonna work hard n make u proud:)

2010-02-23T06:56:00.000-08:00

I don know wad i'm thinking.. i think i'm starting to feel the stress for not coming any single dessert out?? been depending on darling too much feel kind of bad to trouble him. There's been many conflict btw as maybe because we don really understand each other area of food?? gotta be independent n not to trouble anybody.

2010-02-19T20:52:00.001-08:00

Crying now with no exact reason...

2010-01-28T20:40:00.001-08:00

Noel is getting married but don know when but his engaged haha.. now a days its just so hard to find a long time life partner. there r so many life example around me married for many years n yet still had an affair divorce n everything its just so saddening. i wan to have a life long partner i wan to love him forever n i wan him to love me back forever n not having any other affair or anything just me n him. I think its kind of hard izzn't it??In this time of a world there isn't anything call forever right? when ever i saw some really old couples taking a stroll down the road holding hands together, when their partner is sick n old they will do their best to take care of them to make sure they r alright n everything. this is wad love can do no matter wad happen to the other partner u will be with them don care about wad other said about those horrible n discouraging words no matter wad they will still be by their side. Love is such an incredible thing.

Actually love is a sweetest n simplest things on earth it just depends on how u wan it to be.

some ppl just misunderstand love n it become hates n hurts n not wanting to be alone

Love-its a feeling its a chemistry btw the 2 partners nv wanting to leave each other in anyways always been missing n thinking of him/her no matter where n times u will some how feel something sweet inbtw it when ever u do something u will think of him/her wanting to do it with him/her. just like when u'r lying down on the ground alone watching the stars above u n u will think tt if ur partner is right beside u it would be perfect.

so do u ppl know wad i'm taking about haha.

Love is sweet n simple. its not complicated at all, it was u ur self who made it complicated.Just think it easy. n not giving ur self a reason not to love.

2010-01-27T04:02:00.000-08:00

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND CRAZILY!!!

2010-01-25T04:26:00.000-08:00

OUT FIELD DAY 1

I wonder how is darling doing?? Did he over work him self again? is there any major injury?? there is just so many question... I miss him its like just lets say only 1 day n i've been missing him so much...

Today wake up tears just drooling out of the edge of my eye,its just incontrollable. Its just so hard to control. U must be wondering why am i crying? Me too i don't know the answer been emoing since yesterday i don know why may be my mensess coming so or something haha:) I was standing in the middle of the train, suddenly ur just appear in my mind. My tears almost come out but i manage to hold it back. missing is just so painful. Because i love u tts why i miss u. Do u?

2010-01-24T04:35:00.000-08:00

A STORY

There was
a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always
there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see
the world, I will marry you.'

One day,
someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
came off, she was able to see everything, including her
boyfriend.

He asked
her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The
girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
led her to refuse to marry him.

Her
boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before
they were yours, they were mine.'

This is
how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who
was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a
Gift

Today
before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't
speak.

Before
you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone
who has nothing to eat.

Before
you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone
who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today
before you complain about life - Think of someone who went
too early to heaven.

Before
whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
walks the same distance with their feet.

And when
you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your
job.

And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on
your face and think: you're alive and still
around.

2010-01-20T19:27:00.000-08:00

Today i'm gonna blog about my Boyfriend Nicholas Cheng Ri Shen:) hmmmm... my boyfriend is good boyfriend his very protective in some way, but i like because its showing me care n concern we always quarrel but he will try all his way to hold on n protect our relationship. there's one time we quarrel n he said he need sometime to think n be alone. so he left my house at tt time i really break down i cried so badly infront of my mum, n my mum has never seen me cry so hard before.I cried n cried n cried, till i'm to tired.at tt time i thought everything is over i really wanna cut my self at tt time but i remembered promising darling tt i won cut my self anymore. n yes i did not. after everytime i'm kind of exhausted. n i lie on my bed opening my eyes wide n still tears following out of the edge of my eyes. n suddenly my phone rang n its darling calling inside the phone his panting n sort of crying?? he said he love me n his coming down. when i went out of the the house i saw him running towards me n give me an ultra big hug n he smelled of alcohol! n he can't even stand properly n i started crying when he hug me. n i quickly pull him up my room take towel n clean his body while i'm cleaning his talking like a kid hahaha..so cute u will never see this side of him before because its only for me to see haha.. after tt i tug him to bed. I'm very touch at tt time n it makes me wanna hold on to him more. i really love him so much!! n n he will always find ways to make me happy n he can read me very well although i'm very easy to read lah hahaha... hmmm... darling never get angry with me before hahaha.. always i'm the one tt throw temptruem i'm so darling. i know i've always piss u off alitte n make u angry at times but u will always not blame me arh!! u r the best best best boyfriend on earth. there's no any other guy woud be way better then u, because u r the best whahaha!!! i wan to be with u forever n ever n ever!!!heex:)

2010-01-12T19:37:00.000-08:00

Yesterday after work i went down to jurong point n meet darling because they have nights out so they r free to go anywhere they wan heex. so darling ask me whether i wan meet him i say yes of course i wan to meet him hahaha. i misses him so much!! hmm... so after we met up we walk walk around had nice dinner at kushinbo has nice chat with my bf whenever i'm with him i just feel very happy. its a feeling tt it u don know how to say or express its all in ur heart n mind. hmmm... after dinner went ntuc n saw brother with his frenz, the his frenz have some bad comments about me i'm kind of affected about it but after tt i'm okay because its not wad i care tt i am in their eyes its wad i am in my bf eyes, if my bf say i'm pretty means i'm pretty heex:) bf always wan me to have more confident in myself n trying all ways to help me n i really appreciate tt his an awsome bf :) i love him so much tt i wan to be with him for the rest of my life.

2010-01-07T04:16:00.001-08:00

LAst day

Darling is back from outfield now inside his bunk i think?? I miss him so damn bloody much!!!

2010-01-06T05:00:00.000-08:00

Day 3

I miss my boyfriend seriously badly!!! Real lots!!WO HAO XIANG NI YA!!!

hmmm... okay today work was okay finally do order store very hard ah!!! but i can do it haha.. after work went home then went out with dad n mum to view house again nth caught our eye.

2010-01-05T04:55:00.000-08:00

Day 2

Its day 2 darling outfield don't know how is he? is he sick injured or anything happen something bad n depressing?? I seriously miss him seriously damn lots very very miss him. Hope tt everything would be alright during his outfield can't wait the day pass by fast, so tt i could see him as soon as possible:)

Today woke up at 10 plus watch drama online until 2, bath change went down to hougang mall shop alittle, went library for an hour mum came to pick me up after work then went home after tt went to view house.Really hope we could find a real good house value for money n convenient for us really hope so *cross finger* tts all for the day:D

2010-01-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

Feeling kind of emo, kind of suddenly have this feeling. I can't compare anything with other girls they r pretty n have good brain pretty at the out side pretty in the inside. I'm neither pretty inside nor outside, lazy n immature. Alaways giving ppl trouble all the time, when can i start to grow up. Lousy at work lousy at relationship lousy at frienship. I'm just suck. FHA isn't far nor near n i've yet started doing anything ah... dame it lazy me gotta start doing some research. TJQ u gotta wake up its just the start of the new year n ya giving up already!!! Damn u!!WAKE UP WAKEUP!!!

2010-01-04T05:23:00.000-08:00

Day 1
Darling went off to outfield today, he msg me in the morning but i'm still sleeping. so i reply him once i woke up at around 11, the darling reply me later but tts our last msg. i miss him, seriously alot he just called me although its not tt long of a converstation but i'm all satistfied. Just listen to his voice i'm very happy already:)

hmmm... today wanna go library but end up watching shows on tuduo i think darling mac book gonna spoil heex..because i on for very long period sorry darling!!! oh, by the way darling lend me maggy so now i'm using it haha..so nice of my bf ah!!! i miss u darling!! oh.. darling n i were discusing about going on a holiday heex.. thinking of tt makes me excited n happy:) because this would be our first holiday haha.. so we gonnna save save save!! Then we can enjoy oursself hahaha,so happy. I LOVE U DARLING!!!

2009-12-28T07:28:00.000-08:00

Had a serious argument with darling on 26dec:( i'm in the wrong always wan things my way, n darling aways giving in n i still wan more, so many immature thinking, not understanding, i should grow up! tt argument is a really serious wan it hurts me the most so much tt i really break down n cry infront of my mum. when i thought everything is over, n suddenly u came back n i thank u for coming back i'm really happy at tt time. i wan to n never regret being with u right from the start. i love u for who u r i love ur seriousness of love in our relationship n i thank u for tt. i nv wanna leave u wan us to have a extremely happy relationship not for show but for us to feel i wan us to feel the strong love n happiness in our relationship darling lets work hard to getter n work it better heex:) i love u so much right from the bottom of my heart!

2009-12-23T06:43:00.000-08:00

I'M HUNGRY!!! no dinner today haix... hahaha.. nvm use to it heex:) i miss my bf i don think today wil be talking to him not even a msg... i miss him badly!!! i aso don think i will be seeing him this week more sad!! but okay lah.. Christmas is the day where to enjoy ur day with ur family hahaha...hmmm... hope darling is okay.. because no msg today so ya hope his alright.. oh ya today i met lester n marcus on the train so coincidence because nv thought tt i will see them like inside the mrt next to me hahaha... but gotta rush off so didn't really chat with them haha:D

2009-12-20T20:37:00.002-08:00

Time n date is cock up!!!

2009-12-20T20:37:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to miss u already...

2009-12-20T20:36:00.001-08:00

I'm starting to miss u already...

2009-12-20T20:19:00.000-08:00

Hihi everyone heex:) today wake up eary to send darling off, so fast 10 days already n now his returning back to camp but i enjoy this pass 10days with him.. had alittle of quarrel but we over come it n happy happy again heex:) been eating alot this few days! good for darling bad for me wahahaha.. hmm.. went shopping with bro on monday i think then bought a psp as a gift for darling birthday present heex.. although it cost a boom in my wallet but i feel tt 21st birthday is something big so i wan to get something darling really wan for him hahaha, then darling came over my house on 17dec before 12 then we chit chat abit after 12 i surprise him with a small cup cake with a candle on it hahaha... darling so touch heex:) then 18dec his actual birthday we went out the whole day went shopping here n there dinner then watch AVATAR, n i took lots lots of photo still think not enough hahaha.. I WAN TKAE A LOT OF PHOTO WITH U!! heex... i hope darling enjoy the day although its not something big.DARLING I LOVE U ALOT!!

2009-12-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

Sometime i just wonder am i important to u anot.. i really don know how to say don know wad i'm feeling right now..u r tired of me or am i just scaring myself?? i already tried to do everything i can but i still don know do i really ask for too much? will u really love me like how u say from ur mouth? its just so messy..

2009-12-07T03:49:00.000-08:00

I MISS DARLING DARLING!!!! finally tomorrow is the day darling is going to POP:) with bro..haha.. i miss him so much just hope darling will be fine tomorrow hope he will be okay on his 24km road march..miss u darling i love u so so much!!

2009-11-25T04:25:00.000-08:00

I've been reading daring msg again n again..urh!!! i seriously miss him so much. everytime with him is quality time..his my everything:) when darling gave me a paper he wrote on his feid camp n i read it i'm really happy/touch by his words have been reading it over n over again i love my boyfriend!!!

somehow i feel frenz just come n go they need u they come find u they don need u they just walk away from u. it just a disappointment. when i know u have problems i find all ways to help u but,in the end i just a hi bye frenz, i don wan anything in return i just don know wad to say.

2009-11-23T04:57:00.000-08:00

Hmmm... darling book out on fridAY because he pass his IPPT:) then he came down to hyatt to fetch me home heex... its always feels so good to have someone u love to walk home with the feeling is just so sweet n love. Darling did not stay over so he went home n i'm fast asleep heex:) the next day went to work then meet darling at the pick up point where my mum always fetch me headed down to city hall walk walk n meet up with darling groups of frenz went to have dinner with them heex so call very first time hahaha... after dinner me n darling went down to butter factory to meet up with cc rina n evelyn, the queue is crazy not much ppl but very long.. hmmm went down for awhile like lets say about an hour plus drink finish the cupon then went down to cathy n meet up with darling frenz again, after tt we headed home to get drinks then head down to alfreds condo pool side,just chill n relax drink n chat it feels kind of nice. n i really enjoy it heex:) we went home at 3am then slp at 4 plus wake up around 9/10/11am hahaha.. went down to darling house had mac n slp on darling bed hahaha... then went down to darling grandparents house with his family for dinner heex.. i really enjoy being with darling alot.I LOVE NICHOLAS CHENG SO MUCH!!! n darling i'm starting to miss u already!!

2009-11-17T04:35:00.000-08:00

I MISS BOYFRIEND!!! it like as if its been so long tt i've last seen him but the fact is just 3 days hahaha:) i miss him!!! hmmm.... sat meet up with darling then we went down to vivo walk walk shop shop have a great dinner n a good chat along the so call sea?? hahaha then went to catch astro boy.. slpt alittle in the movie heex... sorry darling:) hmmm... i also don know wad i'm feeling now i just feel tt i'm giving hell since the very first day tt we r together but u have no complains at all n always ensuring me be there for me never even thought of walking away from me darling i'm sorry.. i should have grow up n not being like a kid its like army already giving u so many stress n trouble n yet i still keep adding more problems to u.. i'm really really sorry!!thank u for ur persistence.

2009-11-12T20:04:00.000-08:00

Should i go down to carrefour today?? but i'm lazy!! but time pass so slow ... its like so long more to meet up with darling n his booking out today after dinner:( sadded i miss darling miss miss soso much!!!

2009-11-12T07:06:00.000-08:00

After seeing his facebook status i feel relieve n i fee happy for him because now theres is someone to be his pillar n loving him. n its like a new start for me n darling there won be anyone in btw us any more no more extra nonsenses ah really love my darling his always been here for me when ever i need him also giving me his undying love n care although he don have much time for me but he will squeeze time for me n its been half a year already n my love for u r still going strong real strong!! i'm not like who i am in the pass anymore.cheating is not in my dictionary anymore fateful is a new words tt is in my dictionary. Darling i love u n don wish to loose u not even once anymore. gonna treasure the precious time being with u. WO ZEN DE HEN AI NI YA!!

2009-11-10T04:21:00.000-08:00

I just miss the day being with darling!!! i really hope darling will be booking out on Friday so i will be the very first 1 to see him heex:) darling i just miss u so freaking much u know!!!

2009-11-09T03:56:00.000-08:00

hmmm... today is a rather depressing day for me... all because of a guy call james just can't keep his fucking mouth up... fuck u man!!! seriously piss off just by seeing ur face even more piss off when u open ur stupid mouth *^&%^#$#$%$^& arh!!!!! okay stop scolding ppl feel so bad hahaha... hmmm..then suddenly cry alittle hahaha don know y elysee ask me wad happen to me but die die also nv tell her just say i having flu hahaha... but she can read me inside out so she know me too well to not have anything making me cry :) but i also don know y i cry.. hahaha.. must be thinking of darling at tt time hahaha... hmmm... he still haven msg me yet.. but i hope he is alright nth happen to him.

2009-11-07T20:15:00.000-08:00

Darling i miss u!!!!!! first in 6 month tt i n darling have not meet up for so freaking long!!! n i seriously seriously miss him so so much!!! ahhh!!!! i wanna hug him so so badly.... hmmm... been thinking alot again oh no!!! bombing myself again hahaha!!! okay okay... hmmm... yesterday went down for mum n dad anniversary was like late for 1hr hahaha reach there at 8 heex... make cake n have good compliment but still no good gotta keep improving:) was ike hoping darling would be there with me but to bad to sad he got sit test so gonna be in camp n can't come out on the weekends n tts sad because i realy miss him aot... oh.. n was chatting with ah zong kor kor about army stuff like as if i'm the one tt is in army like tt hahaha.. but okay.. la.. it still feels nice chatting with him because his a really damn funny person hahaha... DARLING MISS MISS!!!

2009-11-05T05:00:00.000-08:00

wheeX.... i will be graduating soon!!! n its with darling some more!! whahaha!!! hmmm...lets think back to the past.we've seen each other in sch before but nv talk then we ended up in the same hotel without knowing each other yet but yet we know tt both of us were assisted, then we started to talk ,n 1 day there happens to be a function n we happen to stand together at the little ice cream counter then we chat even more hahaha... after tt he waited for me outside the security n he send me home n surprisingly he is my brother primary sch frenz some more its like once a good frenz hahaha... after tt day we didn't really talk much. n one day he work morning shift n me too, then we went home together after work. as days pass by we went home even more often at tt time we haven have each others number yet. n one day we had number from each other n we started texting each other. n went out for our first date n he smoke like hell i think will die hahaha. after tt we started dating more n more we love to drink so we often meet at my house the park n drink it just feels so nice to just chill at the park n drink an ice cool beer haha.. n we started dating, but things just don happen well in the beginning but because of his endurance n his undying love tt makes us still together:) n it has been like 6 months already time just pass so fast n we will be graduating together when u think back it just feels so happy n thing btw him n me its just so coincidences hahaha... brother primary sch frenz, known each other from shatec, n together in hyatt hahaha... its like i still can't believe tt his mine!! i'm really grateful to have known u.i wan to treasure eveything i have with u.n i appreciate tt u don smoke infront of me heex:) i love u so much darling!!

2009-10-30T02:26:00.000-07:00

Finally i ate KFC today whahaha... its so fattening!!! hahaha.. off today n nth to do at home so keep slp n wake up then play DS until 12 plus change n went down to hougang mall alone:( so sadded hahaha.. then went to the new NTUC to buy some snaks for darling hahaha don know whether his food finish already anot but don care just buy hahaha!!! but nv buy alot lah.. maybe just 5 like tt i think hahaha.. then went down to popular n buy some stationery then go kfc n buy take away then have late lunch at home heex:) ah!!! i miss darling so much miss so much until i keep anyhow think, how?? i don know wad to do!! I feel like buying alot alot of nice nice clothing n dresses but i think again i'm fat fat fat.. buying all this is just a waste of money..sigh...Darling i miss u:)

2009-10-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

I MISS DARLING SO BADLY SOSO BADLY!!! darling went for out field camp so we wont be able to see or talk to each other for like 5 or 6 days?? this is so hard!! i seriously miss darling soso much!! nv stop thinking of him like not even 1 sec!! omg!!! NICHOLAS CHENG I MISS U SO BLOODY BLOODY MUCH!!! hmmm... was like being alone in my room n started to think about the pass, how i n darling started dating the feeling is so sweet:) the first time we realy talk is when we r doing ice cream station then after tt he waited for me outside the security, then walk me home. but in the mean time he also smoke alot! hahaha... after tt we get to go home more often then we go on a date n he smoke alot alot again hahaha... but now he wont smoke in front of me. we have a very bad start n difficulty in btw our relationship n yet his still by my side. his the world greates bf i have. n i wan to marry him n only him!! hahaha... darling i love u!!

2009-10-12T04:11:00.000-07:00

hmm... yesterday claim hour go off at 12pm heex:) faster go down to darlings house miss him so much.. n only can see him for a short period only.. because darling only book out on sunday n book in in the evening.. so sad right.. went to his place n company him n rest at his place haha.. then we nap n our head like glue together then very pain hahaha.. so funny:) sad to say we only got 5hr of time to be together but as long as i'm with darling everything is okay haha...i miss him so so much.. at first i thought i will get use to it but in fact i'm missing darling more n more.. ah!!! its so hard!!! darling i miss u!! yesterday darling say something to me n it really really touch me very much.. n i cry ah!!! tears of joy hahaha.. darling i'm sorry about yesterday night thing... i'm just to happy n suprise u will say such thing to me.. n i know for u to say all this thing is something hard because its something big for u. i understand darling i'm really really sorry if there is misunderstanding btw us.. n i seriously say wad i mean n just to u only.I happy to have u i'm always very happy when u're with me:) i keep reading ur touching msg n my tears would just flow out haha don know y:) love u so much darling!!

2009-10-10T05:48:00.000-07:00

I MISS DARLING !!! miss him so so much!! have not seen him for almost a week.. going crazy!!! ah... hmmm.. got one night was talking with darling about something after we hang up the phone he msg me... when i read the msg i started tearing.. i'm so touch n happy.. darling i so sorry for the doubt of ur love... i really love u.. i don wish to leave u or u leaving me.. love u soso much!!! cant wait to see him tomorrow tmr gonna finish my work as soon as possible then chiong go down n find darling!!! arh!!! miss him so freaking much!!!cant wait to see him...

2009-10-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

aw!!! i miss darling so much like really very much...miss him miss him!!! keep looking at the photo booth photo haha:)

2009-10-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

Tuesday went tekong with family n fatty gf send him off to army ... then as usual walk here n there then saw darling marching:) so cool hahaha... he look damn serious hee... love the attitude.... i miss darling so so much but i only can see him 2 weeks later arh!!! going crazy already!!! miss him like hell can!!!i think i miss him until i emo hahaha:D dumb dumb me....