AHHH!!!! having a little of a mix up feeling... not just relationship but everything... was kind of scared of work tomorrow its like 2 week long of break.. going back of work is like a very new start from everything.. its like i'm once became a white paper.. ah..shit don like this type of feeling... it just sux....OH gosh!! wake up wake up!!! its time for me to wake up!!! its time to work hard from now on after nippy go in army its just me work n study... just this 3 hahaha...n ya.. gotta be fucking independent!! can't always lean n ppl n making them spoon feed me haha... hope i can survie n won be suffering from depression hahaha... oh... n after watching hells kitchen now i very scared of politics is damn scary man... all thoes bitches shit i'm scared ..hope i won be one of them... if i am then i think i gotta change haha... tts bad... SCARY!!!

For tt one hour i flesh back eveything the whole process of our friendship... n i said eveything about our friendship.. thinking back about wad u say to her.. u said even if i don have her as a frenz i also don mind... from then till now i still remember it cleary very clear sparkling clear...sometime it just keep rolling in n out of my head.. maybe all this thing will happen because of wad i have done in the starting i'm just disappointed in myself n ppl... now u should know y everytime u guys ask me out i will always find ways to reject because i know i will be the outcast from the group so wads the point of calling just for the sake of calling?? when ever i'm out with u guys u guys will just stick so close like there is glue in btw u guys... so wad??.. im here to deglue u all?? is tt the point?? n sometime u say u r lonely n we sometime kind of bastard u ps u or wad ever think about the attitude u r giving out... its like ur mood happy happy then okay we talk talk friendly ur mood no good then u come n bitch around?? when u say all this things again flash back wad attitude u have been giving out... before u say or write anything.. u only need me feel lonely when u r alone or u r being ps by another person... i can tell u y yesterday i decied to go down actually i don wanna go down although nic came with me.. i came down because i don wan things to happen like tt day again i don wan to see u get ps n left alone again tts the point y i go down but after going down i regret it... i fell tt i'm being bastard.. although theres nic but i just fucking feel outcast from u 2... i'm the fucking extra one... u girls r best frenz right ya i know i don mind whether u wanna be best frenz with me or wad ever i don mind... n ya thanks for supporting me all the way when things happen n everything i apprecitae tt n really thank u guys whole lots... i wan to be there with u guys too but u guys don share prob with me not at all then tell me how fucking can i be there for u guys tell me?? i really don know..u guys just look diff btw phone n person.. i'm really sorry for everything i've done in the first place things tt i shouldn't do n making those fuck shit ... Now i tell u i'm out of this game i don wanna play this game anymore.. i'm out!! i'll just put a full stop into it.. n i knw no matter wad i say i'll still be in a loose loose situation fuck it... u guys can be real best frenz forever foreever frenz..n if u think i'm jealous tt u guys r so close n jealous tt u girls r best frenz then u girls r wrong!! because this type of freindship don mean much to me.. all this backstabbing things n everything i had enough... i'm out of this game.. u ppl can continue with ur game ... happy playing...

Hello Hello here to bloggy again hahaha... hmmm... went marketing with nippy on wed because he wan to cook for my family haha actually part of it is i wan wan la hahaha okay meet him at serangoon mrt station then down to taka first fill our tummy then went to market place for groccery bought many many things... n this darling of mind stuff all the stuff inside his bag i was like OMG!!! later he hurt his bag again... then we walk down to shaw house the jap market to find squid ink but don have most of the common market doesn't sell tt stuff ah.. tt sux.. after tt we went home n put down the stuff then we carry on do our marketing at kovan cold storage haha... so in the end nippy bought squid to take out the ink hahaha so after we reach home we start to do preperation. then i do my semi fredo nippy do his stuff.. after tt i finish my stuff i help nippy do cutting he teach me how to cut too heex:) after tt family come home then nippy start cooking.. menu for tt day minestrone soup, squid ink risotto,musscle last mango semi fredo with malts... whahaha... over all my family n i was very satisfied with nippy cooking its a great dinner..hahaha... all of us enjoyed it... yeah!!! hahaha... oh then after tt at 11 charlene called us for wad??call us go clubbing... haha... so end up the place at zirca... so fast change makeup n everything then accompany nippy home change n everything then cab down n mee them... n OMG!!! the drinks r ultra ex... so we keep walk in n out of zirca hahaha/... sat at 711 chit chat n everything hahaha.. full of laughter later part around 4 plus problems start to come out okay shall nt say.. hahaha... haix... but this things really effect me n nippy... hope things could still be the same as last time... hope tt all this won be a wall in btw us....hahahaha...