ok after thinking for so long.. i find tt no point crying live still have to go on.. if i'm imperfect then i have to make things perfect. i gotta be more sociable need to slim down tts the biggest part hahaha need to hydrate my super duper dry skin oh.. n nt so sensitive gotto put more trust on boyfriend hahahahaha... gonna try to go towards my goal!!! effect start on 1 sep this time i'm serious lah!!!!!! Nicholas Cheng believe me!!!

here to blog finally ... hahahaha.. i'm to bored!! i'm off n darling is at work... hahahaha.... so i'm here blogging:) we went genting n kl for 4 days 3 night.. n its nt bad just tt the stuff over is equally expensive as singapore.... n there is like another singapore not much stuff over there hahaha... n btw genting to kl theres a little quarrel with darling because of honesty i'm nt being honest with him. n i'm wrong... no complains about tt... just tt nw i'm thinking is like i'm tying him down too much. he cant have a free n easy life no contact with girl no club n drinks always complaining tt he don love me enough... i find it funny.. he didn't cheat on me n so on but yet i don trust him hahahaha... funny ya.. maybe is just tt his such a good guy n i'm such a lousy person t i scared i lost him or maybe karma... question mark question mark.... i'm lousy!!

don know y i suddenly kind of miss darling. hahahaha... althought we've seen each other just yesterday n the day before hahahahahaha.... I JUST MISS U DARLING:)

Today whole day not in very good mood!!! I screw myself up in the morning by quarreling with darling. But nw we r ok already.today whole day wanna time to pass super fucking fast n faster go home!!! End up I took cab home. Nw I just super miss him! Super emo! Super happy tt his coming back already!!!! Seriously misses u!!!! Its been so long tt we've nt seen each other!

I'm emo!!!! I miss my bf super lots!!!!

3rd day of Thailand oversea trip

Imiss darling wan to msg him but don dare scared he very busy or nv turn his phone silence! super miss him!!!!!!!!! hope everything over there went smoothly.

Today work nt really tt busy hahahaha... but work till around 7 plus went over to baba place with lih yee sp n ah wei to visit baba wife. rush over to watch channel 8 9 pm show hahahaha... last eps! i get to see it but my darling cant hahahaha.... feel like tt wan to faster end the show like tt hahahaha.... then sit sit talk talk till 10.30 all tired already then we go hm... so here i am blogging.. hahahaha... super miss my boyfriend n its just the 3rd day. but it feels super long!!!

I'm going swimming tomorrow!!! if i haven come menses hahahahahaha...

Love u Nicholas Cheng!

yesterday send bro n darling at the airport they going to Thailand 16 days of training. first time being apart for so long.. maybe theres more to come. Today is the first day of their training darling bought their high card over there n called me in the afternoon. hahahaha.. His having lts of thai food for lunch sure eat until he sian hahahaha...today Its kind of like this is the first sunday doing nth hahahahaha.. 16 days of independent i must say. so gonna miss him!!