For tt one hour i flesh back eveything the whole process of our friendship... n i said eveything about our friendship.. thinking back about wad u say to her.. u said even if i don have her as a frenz i also don mind... from then till now i still remember it cleary very clear sparkling clear...sometime it just keep rolling in n out of my head.. maybe all this thing will happen because of wad i have done in the starting i'm just disappointed in myself n ppl... now u should know y everytime u guys ask me out i will always find ways to reject because i know i will be the outcast from the group so wads the point of calling just for the sake of calling?? when ever i'm out with u guys u guys will just stick so close like there is glue in btw u guys... so wad??.. im here to deglue u all?? is tt the point?? n sometime u say u r lonely n we sometime kind of bastard u ps u or wad ever think about the attitude u r giving out... its like ur mood happy happy then okay we talk talk friendly ur mood no good then u come n bitch around?? when u say all this things again flash back wad attitude u have been giving out... before u say or write anything.. u only need me feel lonely when u r alone or u r being ps by another person... i can tell u y yesterday i decied to go down actually i don wanna go down although nic came with me.. i came down because i don wan things to happen like tt day again i don wan to see u get ps n left alone again tts the point y i go down but after going down i regret it... i fell tt i'm being bastard.. although theres nic but i just fucking feel outcast from u 2... i'm the fucking extra one... u girls r best frenz right ya i know i don mind whether u wanna be best frenz with me or wad ever i don mind... n ya thanks for supporting me all the way when things happen n everything i apprecitae tt n really thank u guys whole lots... i wan to be there with u guys too but u guys don share prob with me not at all then tell me how fucking can i be there for u guys tell me?? i really don know..u guys just look diff btw phone n person.. i'm really sorry for everything i've done in the first place things tt i shouldn't do n making those fuck shit ... Now i tell u i'm out of this game i don wanna play this game anymore.. i'm out!! i'll just put a full stop into it.. n i knw no matter wad i say i'll still be in a loose loose situation fuck it... u guys can be real best frenz forever foreever frenz..n if u think i'm jealous tt u guys r so close n jealous tt u girls r best frenz then u girls r wrong!! because this type of freindship don mean much to me.. all this backstabbing things n everything i had enough... i'm out of this game.. u ppl can continue with ur game ... happy playing...