Hmmmm... yesterday was real bad damn bad.... had a huge quarrel with nippy.. n we almost break up? when he walk out of my house i really break down cry n cry n cry... i really don know wad to do... i know i get jealous easily.. i also don know y... i'm selffish,no confidence, n scared, trust arh!!! i don know i'm just really scared his a good guy that most of the wan to have n i'm scared one day he will leave me... n tt hurts... it feels really pain... some time i just wonder do i really deserve him.. is he too good for me can he stand my temper n every thing my jealousy?? gosh!!! y can't i just have confidence in my self... i think tts my weakest point?? mummy say tt if i keep thinking all this thing ur relationship won be very healthy ya.. its true... nippy have many troubles to think about already but i'm still adding more n more problems to him... i really don wan to but sometime i just can't control my self... how do can i stop my jealousy?? i don know how but i'll try my best... i think sometime i'm just being childish inmature?? anw in the end darling came back n yes i cry again... because his trying his best to make me happy always giving in for me but i just take it for granted until when he leave then i realise it.... i'm very happy n thank him for coming back to me... i hope our realtionship will get better from now on... i'll try not give anymore nonssence i wan us to be happy... i know its still to early to say about future so i'll just wish tt as long as we r together we will be happy... although things don last long but at least i've once have before...